DEUS CARITAS EST

Pain and pain, wanting to escape from the truth but I had to face the life… Passing by a lot of bad moment not really there and not really elsewhere ? Strange sensation…
I have lost me somewhere but I try hard to be connected to life, you must beleive me.
Blood hanted me, I'm frightened by myself and what I am able to do…
I ask God to help me and passing a lot of my time praying for light back in my life.
When I think I'm at the bottom of the hole I felt down deeper, where is the end ? Is there a end to this nightmare ? Am I going to wake-up and realize everything ?
I would like to keep me under control but that not the case at the moment.
Today I'm here maybe it's a little thing but means a lot for me because I want to share again.
A step, forgive me please for my long time without being connecting.
With all my love
La Puce.

I can't change the "mood" so don't panic…